A Half Life.
A Life of Moments.
Don’t think too much.
Stop blaming yourself.
Stop feeling Guilty.
You didn’t cause this – you don’t have that power.
Stop feeling like a Burden.
Stop feeling like a Freak.
But I cannot stop thinking or feeling.
It is all I have…in this Half Life of Moments.
I have my Guilt, I have my Shame…
And it is a Mighty Feast for one.
And my family…my greatest blessing…
My reason for living, for moving, for continuing to Breathe.
I am told they would not be better off without me. I am told that. I am asked, “Can’t you see that?”
And I’m afraid I cannot.
They deserve Freedom from the great weight that holds them down, requires their care.
They deserve so much more.
They deserve a Whole Life.