https://themighty.com/2016/09/suicide-prevention-reasons-to-keep-living-ikeptliving/

First, I kept living because I was nursing my baby girl. She needed me.

Later, I kept living because there was no way I could subject my wonderful husband and amazing children to finding my lifeless body.

Now, I realize that even tho I feel like a burden to them and a waste of space, they cannot collect on my life insurance.

I need to keep living. I need to believe it will get better. I need to believe that no matter how useless I feel, I am a decent mother to them and I cannot saddle them with the stigma and burden that their mother took her own life. I can’t do that to them. I have to keep trying. I can’t stop. I need to keep living, loving, laughing. I must. 

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