It’s supposed to be the other way around.

When a medication doesn’t work for me…it’s the medication that fails me.

So why do I feel like the failure?

It was supposed to work… the studies showed… the data showed… it is supposed to work, preventing migraine.

Topamax, Zanisimide, Cymbalta, Effexor, Prozac, Nadolol, Verapamil, Candasartan, Pristiq, Vibryd, Protriptyline, Gabepentin, tizanidine, hormones, herbs, steroids, vitamins, supplements …failure after failure.

My heart is broken. I’m sure I am broken. The grief is so real. This disorder is so real.

I have botox with my neuro in a couple of days and I’ll have to talk to her about stopping Aimovig. I believe it’s made my migraines worse …I hurt and struggle with fatigue all day long. I believe it’s made me gain weight. I can’t believe how much I hurt. And I don’t want to.

There are 2 more CGRPs newly released that I can try. But I’m too weary. And I’m too sad. I need some grieving time …and hopefully I can recover.