If I never knew pain, oh the Joy I’d never experience.

One thing is for darn sure: I have medical care. I see my specialist team more than 3x month. 

Still defending myself from a cruel comment meant to harm. Hypocrites are most amazing creatures. They don’t even know they’re hypocrites… They just keep breathing and moving and attempting to mame anyone in their path.

There will never be an apology. And that’s ok. Cuz she could never mean it; she is incapable of seeing the ugly inside. A heart that yearns to be full of love…keeps trying. But only succeeds in covering up the ugly. Just cover it up. There’s even a plastic surgery for that.

🔪🌹 

For so long I tried to only see the sincere attempts to be “good.”🦂 No, I’m not crazy. I just have open eyes. And I’m done being gentle.

I won’t defend myself. Becuz I know. Even when I don’t want to know… I know. I have eyes that see and ears that hear and a heart that listens and a heart that truly loves.

A sad mystery for some; as if they can only see thru cloudy glass. Monsters.

No apologies. Attacks but no apologies. But that’s okay. Distance from toxicity is okay. I apologized even tho I only followed my conscience. These people are toxic and dysfunctional. And it hurts. But I cannot be around toxic people who think these things. 

If you walked in my shoes for one day, you would fall on the first step.

Farewell. God bless.🌹

Nervous…

Selena talks us thru the therapy. Ooof, cold! I was able to stay in just over 2 min and my body temp got down to 51°…they do not want it lower than 45°. The theory behind CRYO is shocking your body into freezing, then it will release healing and anti inflammatory properties as the blood recirculates.

Slightly afraid the severe cold will trigger a migraine.